Paintings By Goats
The Lord has repeatedly talked to me about not
disturbing the goats while I am cleaning the goat
yard during their afternoon nap time . He has
repeatedly related this to the goats of this world
and why he sometimes does not allow them to be
roused out of their sleep and awake to the truth .
So today , as I was cleaning the goat pen I was thinking
about this long run on example that the Lord has been
talking to me about ... The goats were laying all over the
place which was not very convenient for cleaning ,
and the Lord gently reminded me not to disturb them .
I realized suddenly that disturbing them with my rake
is far different than asking them if they want to go graze
while I am cleaning . And the Lord said to me , let them
go out and graze then . I asked him , Lord , how is this
any different ? When do I decide to disturb the goats
of this world from their sleep ? He asked . I disturb them
when they are ready to enjoy the good things that
I have to offer them ; daily guidance , the comfort and
confidence of knowing me as their savior and shepherd ,
eternal life ... all of my many gifts . If they are satisfied
with all of the bad things life has to offer , then why
disturb them ? Why not let them go on sleeping if
they don't want the good things , if they won't accept
them when they are offered ? A sad thought , but I think
I see where the Lord is coming from , so many people
waste opportunities for his offered gifts , at some point he
just stops offering until or if he knows they will accept ,
and sometimes that day never comes . Thank you Lord
for waking me up , I was happy to be disturbed in order
to receive the good things !
I had just put the goats out to graze , I let Maya back in and she went
right to her Mother to nurse when she hadn't been milked yet .
So I took Maya and put her into her night pen , separate from her Mom
to save our milk. Maya started freaking out panicking and pacing etc.
The Lord said , don't you do that , don't you be like that , and I at once
knew what he meant , because in recent times we had been dependent
on Dad's help financially .Now Dad had lost his work , and the potential
financial help for us . Having been under his help , we could easily have
freaked out when it was retracted . We didn't need to panic, because the Lord
was our source , even when He was using Dad to help us , and he would continue
to take care of us .
We had been in a financial trial , and had wondered if we needed to get rid
of the goats . The Lord said , if this trial was about getting rid of the goats ,
don't you think I would have sold the goats that you already had for sale ?
Why do you keep asking me if you should get rid of them when I've already told
you ? Because , i answered , we keep having to struggle , and we want to make
sure you're still with us. He said , do you know why Peter sank ? , because he doubted
because he held back just a little . Don't hold back , trust me , believe me when I tell you
something . It's not about getting rid of your goats , it's about being patient.
I didn't give the goats their normal hay before their grain , I just went straight in ,
and opened the door . Lucy , who does not acknowledge me as her shepherd ,
and actually dislikes me , put her nose into my hand as if to say , don't you
have something for me ? Then she walked out the door , flouncing and acting
arrogant and haughty again , as if she didn't need me, and never looked back
again at me even once. In the same way , non believers who hate God ,
ask him for a hand out , or a favor , and then having asked , go on acting
prideful and arrogant .
Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.
proverbs 16 :18
I was washing the boy goat's water bucket , and the Lord said
did you ever think it was strange that you clean and give the goats
something to drink from the same source ? and he went on
to explain when you are in the word , you both clean and drink at
once . But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst;
but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.
There are few things more heart wrenching for
a shepherd of goats and sheep than to hear the cries
of mamas and babies during weaning , I was out cleaning
pens , and I could hear a kid crying for his Mama from the
weaning pen , as a shepherd you have an overwhelming
Instinct when you hear that panicked cry to go and rescue them
but you cannot , because weaning must happen. I spoke to
The Lord about this , because it was stressing me out ,
times have been rough lately , and this crying was more
than I could bear on top of everything else.
“Don’t you think that as your shepherd your cries cause me
pain? But I must weigh what is best for you , and sometimes that
means withholding something from you that you feel you need.
Like a baby being weaned , you cry because you believe you need milk
But I am preparing you for more , I am preparing you to receive meat.”
ye have need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the
oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat.
For every one that useth milk is unskilful in the word of righteousness: for he is a babe.
But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who
by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil.
When Cherokee’s twins got frightened , or realized they
Were alone in the room , they would go at once and find
A hiding place , behind a door , under the feeder ,
And I at once wondered if David called the Lord his hiding
Place for that cause ,
Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from
trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs
of deliverance. Selah. Psalm 32:7
Sienna , Amira’s girl , wanted to nurse , and her
Mother didn’t want her to , in order for them to
nurse , at this two month age , the mother puts her head
Down a little , and looks at them, and that is the signal that
They can nurse , the little doeling just kept looking
Up into her mom’s face , straining up to touch her ,
Trying to make her look at her , and Amira just
Kept looking away and resisting . And it reminded me
Of when God hides his face from us , and how troubled we are
And that then we are to seek his face
Thou hidest thy face, they are troubled:Psalm 104:29
When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto
thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.psalm 27:8
I left a goat in the stanschion while
I went to do something else , I looked back at
Her waiting to get let out , and the Lord said ,
I only leave the goats in an uncomfortable position
As long as necessary too (as well as the sheep)
ie alive in this world even
Our goat Brat was coming into the
pen from being out grazing, I
was holding him by the collar to
lead him in, and he was pulling
and pulling against me, trying
to go his own way, and he finally
broke free and almost ran his head
into the barn. I often think it that in
trying to go our own way rather
than the way the Lord is trying to
lead us, stubbornly clinging to self
will, to self-sufficiency we
more times than not only end up banging our heads against the wall.
In the goat barn during milking
we have an in door and an out door
so that there is no confusion of where
we expect the goat who is next to be
milked to be waiting when her name
is called for her turn.The goats kept
coming to the wrong gate and expecting
to be let in, I kept telling them,
”I won’t let you in unless you come through the
right gate.” Likewise there is a right gate
that leads to salvation, a right gate that leads
to heaven, and we cannot get in through
the wrong gate ,but we have to come
through the right gate, the one that Christ said was
right, through him. Enter ye in at the strait gate:
for wide is the gate, and broad is the way,
that leadeth to destruction, and
many there be that go in thereat:Because strait is
the gate and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto
life, and few there be that find it.
I am the door:by me if any man enter in,
he shall be saved
We were out of grain at the
Kid barn, so I fed the little boys
their alfalfa hay early in place
of it. Later when it was actually
time to feed alfalfa,I was going to
withhold from them,because
they had already had some early.
A goat is very routine oriented,
and when I failed to give it to them
when I ordinarily would have, they
were upset and started running in
and out of their house, looking at me
puzzled. The Lord said “Give them their
alfalfa.” After I did, He said “If you ask
me for something and I give it to you
right away, you are less likely to remember
it than if you ask and I wait to give it
to you. Sometimes it is in the waiting
that we see God move more clearly,
and in the building anticipation of
His answer,that we have the
opportunity to exercise faith.
Knowing that tribulation worketh
patience; and patience, experience;
And hope maketh not ashamed
We lock up the goats kids in the
Early evening as they get older so that
They can move toward being weaned,
And we always give them something
Good to eat in the kid pen, so they will
Think it is a good thing to go in when we
Put them away.
One day Ellie was crying to get put away
In the kid pen so that she could have
that little bit of grain we offer as incentive
to be willing to go through the gate.Ellie
couldn’t see ahead, and did not have
the foresight to know what would happen,
that she would be closed in, away
from her mom until the next morning
Ellie only knew what she
thought she wanted,she didn’t have
the understanding to see that she was free, then
she,at her own insistence was put away,
and no longer free. In the same wise, we
often ask the Lord,even beg Him for
things we think we want, but we have no
understanding of what it will mean
if we get what we ask for, often times
our desires for ourselves
and our futures are not the thing that is best
for us,and the Lord being all knowing,
doesn’t always give us as we’ve asked
Him for but sooner what Is best.
One day while milking the goats,
I called Josee for her turn to be
Milked,she didn’t come,I called
her again,she still refused to come.
So I called Kai as the next goat in
Line to be milked. After Kai was done,
I called Josee again, and this time
She came. The Lord calls us and calls
Us to come to Him, “I will be as a moth”
What does a moth do? It bothers us,
Fluttering through the room,
Then when we still don’t respond, “I will be
as a Young lion, I even I will tear and go
away.” Have you ever seen a young cat
with something it has caught? The cat
grabs it then retreats to see what will it do.
This is when the Lord allows hardship to come
Into our lives, in order for us to see our need for
Him and that we can’t do it alone,
still calling to us through our hardship.
If we still don’t answer His call then He just
Goes away…we don’t hear His calling anymore…
we have until it is time to leave the barn to answer His
call, until our death, or until the rapture of the Church,
neither of which do we ever know the hour of.
Come let us return unto the Lord: for He hath torn,
And He will heal us; He hath smitten, and He will
Bind us up. Hosea 6:1
Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is
The day of salvation 2 Corinthians 6:2
When a kid was needing to put
On weight I put him alone in the
Yard with grain, every day he fought
To stay with the other kids who
Were eating hay,trying to stay with the
Provision he can see,sooner than realizing
I’m taking him to something better.
As people, we are much like this,
We often seek to hold onto the provision
We see, not realizing, the Lord has a
provision far better, which we can’t see.
By faith Abraham, when he was called to
Go out into a place which he should
After receive for an inheritance, obeyed;
And he went out, not knowing whither he
Went…..But now they desire a better country
That is,an heavenly: wherefore God is
not ashamed to be called their God:
for He hath prepared for them a city.
Hebrews 11:8 and 16
I was complaining of the cost of the
new goat grain we had transferred the
goats to because while it was much better
quality than the other feed we had been on,
it was also twice the price. The Lord told
me”Be open handed, even with the goats”
and I answered “But what about economy?”
and the Lord answered, “There is a difference
between economy and cheapness.” Give, and it
shall be given unto you; good measure,
pressed down, and shaken together, and
running over, shall men give into your bosom.
For with the same measure that ye mete
withal it shall be measured to you again.
And all these blessings shall come on thee
and overtake thee, if Thou shalt hearken unto
the voice of the Lord Thy God.
I had let one of the goats out to come and be
Milked , and she was going mad waiting for me
To put the grain in the bin , pretty much having a hissy
Fit , “can’t you just be patient ?”I asked her , then came
The Lord’s resounding voice , “Are you patient for your
Reward ?” he asked me , “No Lord” I admitted “Your
Reward will come , but you must be patient until it does”
I am a rewarded of those who diligently seek me Heb. 11:6
And I know the Lord is right , one day the reward will come
After much toil and many trials on this earth , but how I long
To hear Him say those words , “well done good and faithful
I was cleaning the boy’s goat barn , and I was talking to the
Lord complaining, couldn’t he just fix this messy world now
Rather than later ? Can’t you make things better for us now
Rather than later ? While I was distracted talking to him ,
I accidentally put hay in the boys’ second hay bin before I
Had cleaned that side of their house , they rushed in then
To eat the hay , and the Lord said to me, “Do you see what
Happens if I give you your reward now instead of at the
Right time ? Your reward can get in the way of me cleaning
The mess if it is given at the wrong time .”
And behold , I come quickly and my reward is with me , to
Give every man according as his works shall be Rev. 22:12
Behold I come quickly ;hold fast that which thou hast ,
That no man take they crown . Rev. 3:11
Sheep & Goat Stories
The Lord told me to use the remaining money from the sale of a sheep
for goat grain , I had wanted it for improvments on the sheep barn
as I was taking the grain to the goat grain and complaining
He said , you should do that more happily . I said , yes , but it's hard.
The Lord said ,if you have it in your ability to do , you need to do it.
I said , but you have it in your ability to do things for us , but you don't
always do it. The Lord said , you teach the goats not to trust you
when you don't have their grain . And I said , exactly , don't
you teach us not to trust you ? The Lord said , no , I teach you
to trust me anyway . I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and
my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. Psalm 91 :2
I looked down at my leather work glove , and I saw there was
another hole in it . The Lord said , do you see that ? What doesn't
bend will break , the glove had gotten dry and brittle from having
been used and worn so much in all kinds of weather . When the leather
gets like that , unwilling to bend , it breaks . We must be willing to
bend to the Lord's will , to be used for his work , or else he will
break us for his work , he has to for us to be of a use and value to him
A bruised reed shall he not break, and smoking flax shall he not quench,
till he send forth judgment unto victory. Matthew 12:20
I had put out the ram to graze , and he couldn't see the ewes
from where he was ,so he was running along the fence and pacing
running over the nice grass i had put him on , and ruining it .
The Lord said do you see that ? Do you see how he is acting ?
How he panics , only seeing what is bad in the circumstance .
And he passes over what is of a benefit to him , what is sweet
and lovely here . Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true,
whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever
things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of
good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
The Lord had told me not to take the sheep in from grazing
until I had finished cleaning the ram pen . A ewe that had been
wandering loose , had went to the barn to eat , and her sister ,
who was tied , started going insane crying and flying around on the
end of the lead because her sister was out of her sight.
I went almost all the way up to her , deciding to let her go back to the
barn too , when the Lord reminded me of what he had said ,
not to let them in yet . The Lord said then when I withdrew my hand
Why is she doing that ? I said , because her sister went in without her.
He said , why won't you let her go ? I answered , because you told
me not yet . And the Lord said , exactly , the Father has told me not yet also.
The timing of the rapture is in God the Father's hand , and he has to
leave us out grazing just a little while longer .
But of that day and that hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels
which are in heaven, neither the Son, but the Father.
The Lord showed me that I don't always have to let the sheep bully me
into doing things for them , that I am their shepherd , and I need to do what's
best for them no matter what they want , because their desires change constantly
and like them , we can never be made content , so we must necessarily leave what's
best to God's knowledge .
I was trying to lead Israel around the sheep pen , he was on the outside , I was on the inside
and I didn't want to walk through the overgrown knotweed , it was high , thick and wet .
So I thought I would jsut lead him around the fence by his leash . He ignored me and wouldn't lead , as I was leading from high up , the leash was over the fence . And the Lord said , It is impossible to lead from above , thats why Jesus came , that's why he's coming again
You can drive a sheep from above , but sheep are led , not driven .
I was milking one of the sheep , and she was not cooperating , and I went to touch her ear
as discipline , and when she moved , the stanschion bar , which was not properly attached ,
swung far to the side and busted me in the lip , giving me a fat lip , and almost a broken tooth .
I milked the uncooperative ewe a little bit more , to show her she must be milked , and would not get away with misbehaviour . As I put the sheep out to graze , I struggled to see the lesson.
I was noting the fat lip was my war wound with the sheep , and the Lord interrupted my interpretation , and corrected , you are not at war with the sheep . I thought of the scripture
how there is no more enmity between God and us because of Christ when we are saved .
And I remembered how judgment , true judgment , and wrath is not for the sheep , ie Christians, but for those who are against God . I recalled in the wilderness , God recognized that the Israelites were just ignorant , and he repented to destroy them ,because sin was in their nature , and to go astray was their disease . With the sheep , it's even worse , she's just an animal , she doesn't understand , she just wants what she wants . I thought of how Paul says if Christ forgave us , how much more should we forgive each other , recognizing that unlike Christ , we are subject to the same stupid behaviors as one another , who are we to withhold forgiveness , when we are just as bad ? Who are we to be impatient and angry when we are just as bad ? When Christ who is perfect forgave us , and was able to forgive the Israelites , because they were only human . So God is infinitely patient with us , because we are nearly just as lacking in understanding as the sheep are , and He is no longer at war with us , once we are the sheep of his pasture and submit to his will. be ye reconciled to God so he isn't at war with you anymore .
Having abolished in his flesh the enmity, even the law of commandments contained in ordinances; for to make in himself of twain one new man, so making peace ,And that he might reconcile both unto God in one body by the cross, having slain the enmity thereby:
The sheep were crying to be fed early , and I fed them.
The goats were crying too , and I didn't feed them .
and the Lord asked why I heeded the sheep's cry
and not the goats . and I said , because they aren't my responsibility
they are my sister's . Exactly , he answered , when I went into the
house having left them unfed , the Lord told me that the goats
need to be left in an uncomfortable position until they will cry
out to the right person ie, they cry out to the rocks to fall on them ,
even to God , but until they cry out , not just in need , but also in repentance
they aren't my responsibility .
I tied one of the rams (Israel) out to graze beside them pen , and he cried and cried
even while eating mouthfuls of grass , he continued to cry , and he was making the
lambs cry because they heard him . And the Lord told me , you see , complaining
becomes habitual if you do it enough , and even when you have what you said you wanted
the complaining continues , but you can control it. Just as the Israelites could in the wilderness
as one complainer led to more . You have to change the habit . Being angry is also a habit
that's why the scripture tells you not to let the sun go down on your wrath , because it
becomes a habit that's hard to break , you need to form new habits
One morning , I was happy to get to the work the Lord
had asked me to do , which was to care for his sheep
I was going to hurry through my morning prayers and
bible reading . The Lord warned me not to lose focus
on the point of the whole thing , which was to learn
about him , not to get caught up in the physical work of
it and miss the spiritual meaning .
He had told me two sheepisms already , and as I was
finishing cleaning in the sheep barn , he told me to go and
write down what he had told me , and I said , shouldn't I finish up
here first ? shouldn't I finish feeding the sheep first ?
and He said , don't lose focus on what matters , and on the point
of it , go and write it before you forget it , feeding can wait .
After feeding the animals I walked by the pens,
No one even stirred , and the Lord said ,
See how they barely even notice you ?
Or pay any attention to you ? When they don’t
Want something ?? That’s like you .
And on my way back , I was noting how silent
Even Annie was (our loud mouth ewe) and the Lord
Said , see how they don’t even speak to you ?
When they don’t want something ? Just as we often
Don’t speak to Him when we don’t want something .
And then , beyond where the sheep could no longer see me ,
Annie baaa’d to me , speaking to me only as an afterthought
Just as we often do to the Lord
I was taking stock of my life , and I told the Lord
I want to do more for others , and he said ,
You’re not ready yet , but he put me to practice
One of our ewes had just lambed , this was the
Pregnant ewe the Lord had told me to feel the
Lamb kicking in her belly , he told me this is a black lamb for you to keep
There was a white lamb and a black lamb , and a smaller
Underformed lamb that did not live
I was getting ready to clean up our black lamb’s pooey bum ,
as first poos often get stuck. And I saw her twin Moriah , who
the Lord. had told me we were not to
Keep because he had other plans for her , also needed cleaning
and I was going to just leave it thinking the mama would take care
Of it , and the Lord said just because it isn’t yours to keep
Doesn’t mean you shouldn’t take care of it
In the same way , doing for others without a benefit to oneself
So I cleaned Moriah up first , and later in the same day
I had to pick Brat the goat’s nose for him , in further practice
To do the unlovely .
I took Jordan , (our promised black lamb) out,
With her grandma and her older sister Zion
To graze without a leash . I had to keep calling her
As we went , and looking back at her so she could
See my face in order for her to follow. When it
Was time to come back in from grazing , I realized
I couldn’t catch her so I started walking away quickly
Ie. bolting , and turning back to her and calling her .
She left her family and ran after me , and she would pause
And I would have to show. Her my face and look back at her
In order for her to continue to follow . Once she got too
far behind to recognize me (looking at the goats and the world )
And I had to return for her . As soon as she saw my face and heard my
Voice , she followed again . Like us with the Lord
This morning as I was thinking about the shepherds ,
and how they would lay down their lives for. The sheep ,
And why they would do that ( I suppose because they are their
Livelihood David spoke of fending off a lion and then a bear .)
The Lord asked me , would I die for the sheep and I thought about it
If something was attacking them , would I try to save them ?
I considered how my sister and I braved the rain and hail storm yesterday
To go fetch them back from grazing ,even though they didn’t see why
They had to come in , and complained about it , until they saw the
Bad weather would continue . And so I answered the Lord yes ,
I would die for the sheep , and the Lord asked ,why ?
I said , because they’re my sheep , and they’re your sheep Lord .
…Our sheep , because they’re my responsibility ,
Because you gave them to me , and I don’t want to lose
Even one. Then I understood , that is why He died for us
Because we were his. Sheep , God’s sheep , And God gave us
To him , and He didn’t want to lose even one.
The other day , I was thinking , as I
Have been thinking, the farm chores
Were taking me too long , and I was spending
Too much time on it . And the Lord said ,
Does it matter how much time it takes if I
Told you to do it ? Then I realized , that it doesn’t
Matter how long it takes ,( that we have to stay here
On earth doing the Lord’s work if he told us to
Do it ) occupy til I come ,
I was noting that the sheep who Interacted with me
ie. Stayed close to me , were the ones who got
Special treatment , treats , pets , attention , etc.
And the Lord said , that’s the only way I
Can treat you to special things , if you are
Close with me , wanting to interact .
We kept running out of sheep grain , because
We were out of goat grain , and we kept feeding
The sheep grain to the goats . Then we ran out of
Alfalfa , and I said Lord , they are your sheep , why do
You let them suffer ? I understand letting the goats feel need
But why not provide for the sheep without Interruption ?
And he answered and said , what kind of. person do you
Think you’d be if I never let you go through anything ?
Not a very good one I answered , you’d never learn
Compassion , and if I provided without Interruption…
“ then I’d follow just for the provision, just as the people did
With Christ” I finished .
I was cleaning up the yard raking
everything into a pile, and the baby sheep
wouldn’t leave me alone, she kept trampling
my pile “I can’t clean up your mess if you
don’t get out of my way.” “Exactly” the
Lord answered. By trying to do our lives ourselves
by trying to fix our own problems, by trying to
“help”, We only get in God’s way, He can’t work
when we’re working, nothing spiritual can happen
when we are in the natural trying to do it ourselves,
if it did then we would think we had done it
One day while putting some
additional work into the new
sheep pen , Dad found himself
with the task of trying to keep
an eye on Ramsey at the same
time he was working, this was not
an easy task, because he was a
sneaky little thing, he was curious
about what Dad was doing, he
wanted to know what was going
on here and how it pertained to
him... we still didnt know these
sheep very well, but we did know
that they were still very afraid of us.
I was just walking by when I saw
Dad squatted down inside the pen
with his back turned and not
watching... it only took that one
moment and Ramsey took the
opportunity... WHAM!! Dad said
later that it felt like a semi truck hit
him right in his hip. He got out of
there, and he was in some pain
after the incident. He was sore for
a few days ... one thing was for
sure... he was the first to be
rammed, but he would not be the
last. it wasnt bad enough to go to
the hospital, but it hurt.. Dad told
us later that he asked the question
of the Lord " why did you ram me
Lord?" the Lord's response was
" I want you to listen to me when I
tell you something" He knew he
should not have gone in there, and he
knew he should not have turned his
back, he thought he could watch
We began to notice it that even
being and extremely strong
creature, and so very noble
looking ... Ramsey had a certain
weakness where his little family
was concerned. He was
insecure , He was terrified to
lose them, to be without them
even for a minute. His ewes were
very important to him, he had to
be able to see them at all times or
he would just lose it, he would cry
this throaty panicked cry and he
would run as fast as he could back
and forth. We had to put Annie on
the stansion to check her out
because she was pregnant make
sure that everything seemed allright,
and when we took her out to do this,
Ramsey completely came unglued.
We had left the younger ewe Lil Bit
in with him, but this did not disuade
his panic one iota... in fact, it became
clear very quickly that it wasnt safe
for her in there alone with him
while her mother was gone. We
brought her outside and tied her
near Annie, and we had no choice
on Ramsey, we just had to let him
rage against the world while we
looked Annie over and cleaned her
up, trimmed her hooves etc. Sumer
spoke to the Lord about this odd
behavior ... how strange that he
would react this way to being away
from Annie , and the Lord told her
that Ramsey has never had a
shepherd... and having not had a
shepherd, he has no protector,
no comforter , he looks to Annie for
his comfort . The comparison then
is that if a person does not look to
the Lord for comfort, you will look
somewhere else... In this world
people look to many places for
comfort and fulfillment other than
to God,and my conclusion to
this was that if you are looking
to uncertain sources for your
comfort, and your strength, you're
going to act like Ramsey when that
tangible source is taken away.
The sheep were crying because
I hadn't fed them yet and had to
get more alfalfa from the other
barn ." Don't they know
I won't leave them without resource?"
I thought and the Lord shot back
"Dont you know the same ? And yet
you doubt me... and they are only
dumb brutes." " It takes time for
them to learn the routine," I thought
"and even then, they only believe
what they see. Because they
don't have God's word to lean
on , how much better off are we
and still we doubt .
The Lord told me suddenly
when I was feeding the animals
that I had fed in the wrong order
having fed the goats first, he told me
to put the sheep grain in the bucket
before the goat grain. He said" Do
you know why I ask you to put
the sheep first?Because I do. "
Zion wouldn't stay with me in the
goat yard and the goats kept
trying to beat her up . I said to
her" I can't protect you if you don't
stay with me. "And the Lord said ,
"Isn't that just how you are ?
when you try to solve your own
problems, when you go your
own way, I can't protect you
when you are away from Me."
I was taking Little Bit and Annie
out to graze, and Lil bit started
pulling back against me refusing
to budge, because she wanted
to graze in the yard that we had
almost passed by. I lost my temper,
and Latresha came back and got
her and was going to take her to
graze for me, and I said " No, take
her back to the barn she doesn't get
to graze." And the Lord revealed that
is the way it is with us we can't just
decide where and when to "graze "
because we don't know what is
best for us. So if it's the Lord will, we
shall live , and do this or that
James 4:15 , because He knows
where it's best for us to "graze", and if
we refuse, and go our own way, we
don't get to "graze" at all, ie he can't
bless us out from under his
covering. We don't understand and
he can't explain it to us , if he told
us part of what he's going to do
and part of his plan, we'd want to
know why and wouldn't be happy
until the whole plan was unfolded
before us. The sheep like us, want
to know what is going to happen
before it does. and as I couldnt
explain it to Lil Bit, that she had
grazed there too often, and needed
to have a better graze spot, and
needed to save that one close to
the barn for bad weather, so God
cannot explain it all to us because
his thoughts are higher than our
thoughts. So we as Annie, should
trust that the shepherd knows best
and trust Him to decide where to put
"her" , unlike Lil Bit who when you
take her out , is always turning to
look at this spot or that, as to say
are we stopping there ? Why aren't
we stopping there? And Annie just
lets me lead her and seems not to
care, trusting she'll be happy
wherever I put her. God cares
about what we do, where we go ,
and how we do it all.
I was leading Ramses to the
barn by his horn,and as I didn't
feel equal to wrestling him in
from the pasture, I let him go.
He went three steps,stopped,
tipped his head to the left,
backed up three steps, handed
me his horn, because suddenly
he was unsure of himself,
and wanted me to lead him.
Sometimes the Lord lets us
go ahead of Him so that we
will realize we don't know
where we are going,and we too
have to back up a step or two,
wait on the Lord, and submit
ourselves to be led. There is
great comfort in that, as Ramses
knew, when you are uncertain,
God is certain, when you don't
know what to do,He does.
I was spraying out the floor of
the barn with the hose and it
was raining out, the sheep are
afraid of the water hose,and don't
want to be sprayed by it,but
also don't like to go out in the
rain,so they figured out to come
and stand behind me while I'm
spraying, that behind me is the
only safe place to be,so that
Little Bit came to be standing
so close that she was touching
me as she sought protection
behind me, from me, despite the
fact that I was the one doing the
very thing that scared them.
When the Lord is doing some-
thing to our necessity, like
cleaning up the messes in
our life, while it may make us
unsure, and even afraid as He
does what is necessary to our
holiness, we too need to stand
behind him closely while He works,
because it is the only safe place
for us to be.
Israel and the ewes had closed
themselves in the small adjoining
room,having broken open the door,
and they were calling to me to let
them out, but I was busy in the
hen house and had already realized
it was to my advantage to leave
them closed in while I cleaned up
the mess in the main barn, rather
than kicking them out in the rain
where they could truely get hurt by
getting wet and catching pneumonia.
They called me and called me, not
understanding why I didn't come
and get them out of the trouble they
had gotten into,but I understood it
would serve a greater purpose to
leave them there while I worked.
In the same way God leaves us
in uncomfortable and tight situations
while He works, not willing to put us
in real danger, but enough trouble
that he can get done cleaning up the
messes in our lives.But when I did
not come when they thought I should,
Israel,trying to fix his own problems
started ramming the gate repeatedly
little realizing his own efforts would
do no good, and that he would just
have to be patient while I worked,
just as we must do with the Lord.
I was in the barn finishing things up
before I fed the sheep, and Annie
started jumping against the gate
trying to see the alfalfa hay, and
trying to get to it. I'm in the pen
with her and I'm the only one who
can get the feed for her but Annie is
not looking at me, she's looking at
the feed. Often times we do the
same, the Lord is right there with us,
but sooner than to look to Him as
our provider of all things, we look
to the provision with longing, little
knowing it can only be given at
the Lords behest.
Israel was very upset because he
was put out to graze alone, without
any other sheep,knowing I would
be nearby the whole time.So he
was pacing the whole time on the
end of the graze line until he was
all tangled up. As soon as I came
to get him, he stopped pacing, let
me get the lead rope but wouldn't
be still so that I could untangle it.
He started tossing his head around,
so I unfastened his collar, because
the graze line was tangled around
his middle and caught in his wool,
as soon as he thought he was free,
he started to take off as if he would
go to the barn. As to say "I can do
it myself" Seeing quickly that he
wasn't quite free, he came back to
me."Can you help me?" So I
untangled him and he jerks free,
goes running off as to say "I can
do it myself." Quickly he realizes
he doesn't know where the door to
the barn is, so he takes a few steps
back to me, "Can you help me?" He
gives me his horn then to lead him
by, and I led him most of the way
back to the pen,enough so he can
remember the way, and for a final
time he jerks away from me. "I can
do it myself" He seems to refrain
again, as he heads to the pen. A
ram is a willful,stubborn, and often
irrational creature, who, like us likes
to go his own way, is prideful, doing
for himself, and does not learn easily
to trust.But all goes much more
smoothly when we learn to trust our
Shepherd,to wait on him to fix our
problems, be patient while He does,
try not to rush ahead of Him and try
to do it all ourselves, only to realize
we can't, and have to return to Him
for help anyway.
The Lord told me to clean and
feed the sheep earlier in the a.m.
that this was what was best for
them.I told him that the sheep
won’t like it,they will complain later
when their normal time comes that
they would be fed.Because sheep
need routine and hate it when their
routine is altered.The Lord said
“They may not like it but what they
like and what’s best for them are two
different things. Then I asked, what
about the ram? Do I have to clean
and feed him early too? The Lord
answered “No the ewes only .”
I said what is the difference, the
ram is a sheep too.The Lord answered
“I don’t treat all my sheep exactly the
same.” “Isn’t that favoritism?” I asked
“No they just need different things.”
I skipped letting the sheep as I
normally would in the morning,
letting them wait til last,because I had
7 lbs of apples for them, and wanted them
to enjoy them in the barn. In the same wise
God is never late when acting on our part.
The Lord lets us wait past what we think
is “time” because he has
something good he wants to give us.
We had just learned about a “cast” sheep
When one of our sheep became cast for the first time.
which is a sheep which gets on its back
usually a dip or divot and can’t get up
again by itself, they don’t have the muscles
on their back that enable them to get up on
their own and the shepherd has to get them out of it.
Sheep like to dig a pit to sit in, I finally figured out
it was them digging the pits in the pens, and that
is how they get “cast” is by digging a hole, of their
own making and they can’t get out again
without the shepherds help.
In the same way, we dig a pit of trouble and we
get in it and we can’t get out of it again and
have to wait for the Lord to get us out.
Why art thou cast down o my soul?
and why art thou disquieted in me?
Hope thou in God
Latresha was giving the sheep and goats
their twice annual wormer orally
when she discovered something
we did not know,sheep do not
have to open their mouths,they
can keep their mouths shut.
We as Christians are also capable
of doing the same, keeping ourselves
from saying imprudent things.
Set a watch, O Lord, before my
mouth; keep the door of my lips.
The Lord kept telling me not to leave
The sheep in their milk stanchion eating
their grain, when I know they’re done
He had told me that repeatedly , and then
He told me why ; “I don’t leave you in an
uncomfortable position any longer than you
have to be there “. ie in financial ,physical ,
emotional , spiritual discomfort . If we’re there
We need to be there ,and the minute we don’t need
To be there , He gets us out .
I was getting the sheep some grain from the goat barn,
The goats didn’t have their special order grain yet ,
The Lord showed me yesterday how the goats are
Being fed by the sheep , they wouldn’t have any food
If we didn’t have the sheep , as. they are eating sheep food
While we transition to special order goat grain , True of
Spiritual sheep and goats also . We were supposed to get
Goat grain in today , and I was going to put the rest of the sheep grain
In the sheep bucket , and the Lord told me to wait , so I left the
bucket there, later I was filling it for the next morning and I
Realized the sheep only have food for today , I was preparing it
Only day by day , with no hay storage in their barn either ,
So day by day ,, in fact hour by hour , they only have as much as
they need , the same as us , so God can show He is the source
Of the manna .